" The Slip "

Or the Technical term for it 'relapse'....


 

This is an integral part of the growing up process of getting better.

Some people don't have them. Most people do.

Well a slip is when you hit the bottle again after a period of sobriety. It brings with it many feelings, mostly of which are feelings of shame and deep down guilt.

The person who can merrily 'throw the full bottle down the sink'..and not touch another drop till the cows come home is a 'very' lucky person indeed, and I am quite impressed with that person if however not totally envious. I am a firm believer in the laws of learning. The human being has done 'well' with them.

In the beginning of your road to recovery, you are going to embark on your first 'dry' spell. You have convinced yourself ( you think ) that you are an alcoholic and the only way forward for you and your family is 'total' abstinence.

you are in fact very ill. You 'feel' ill, and you are 'sick' of feeling ill. So....this is the time that you are going to prove to everybody that you have the balls and show them that you can heed advice and act with the tools that you have been given......

'This is a nail biting time for 'every one'....including yourself..'

But....and this is the BIGGEST BUT of all......

" You know deep down that when you are in control, you will be able to take another drink ".....

This in the job is known as "stinking thinking". I will be coming back to this little gem time and time again.

 

Let's fast forward the clock.....

 

Ok...lets have a count up..      how many slips have you had up till now ??

two....three....five.......lost count...???      " I did ".....but I think I managed to keep them countable using two hands....just !

Before we go any further into this, lets stop and analyze what's going on here.

ok you have had a slip or two.you have 'felt' those feelings of guilt and self annoyance. But it has only strengthened your resolve. You are truly annoyed with yourself because the night or afternoon that you spent all that money on booze was of no 'real' consequence. It 'did not' alter your status quo in life ..apart from making it a lot worse.

You got pissed , talked meaningless inconsequential crap with people that you NEVER see outside the pub and threw 'more' money away in the process...

It hurts in the cold light of day , doesn't it ?

but......ha !!

The "SEED" has already been planted !!

it's got it's eyes on that virus...it's got it in it's sights....

can you feel yourself becoming more and more 'focused' on your condition and your health....you don't need to tell me.... I know the answer.

 

last edit 12/5/05....

 

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